FAST FORWARD

I apologize for the blogging hiatus. As I mentioned in the previous post, I think I have a pretty good excuse. This quote captures my life lately…

"Life has many ways of testing a person’s will, either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen all at once." – Paulo Coelho

I look back on my early 20’s and think of how eager I was to move into the “next phase” of my life. I wanted SO badly to graduate college and move to the other side of the country or even the world, find the perfect career, and most of all fall in love. But the days seemed to drag on, school was a challenge as I worked full time overnight at the hospital, I spent lots of time going out and “having fun” with friends while inside I felt lonely, isolated waiting for “the ONE” to come sweep me off my feet and we would take on the world together. I watched friends get married and have children, one by one. I lost faith along the journey, but the perfect guy eventually did come in to my life. That intense spark was quickly diminished upon finding out that Mr. Perfect would be moving to England for work (Alanis Morissette isn’t it ironic playing in the back ground). But life has a way of bringing people together, it was truly meant to be when Mr. Perfect finally moved back home a couple years later and that spark ignited a wild fire. 

We moved in together and then our one year lease was over in the blink of an eye. What’s next? Still excited for the future we contemplated a big move across the country or a big investment? We picked the latter. So, this past December we purchased our first home together. Renovations started immediately. Our time was stretched between work, renovations and for me school as I finished up my last semester of college. I saw a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s so easy to look ahead and think after I tackle this THEN life will be perfect. Well life was busy making other plans and one week before my final Finals I received a test result that would change our lives forever, that was a big positive pregnancy test! 

I know this sounds dramatic but I literally saw my life flash before my eyes. I have never been so overwhelmed with emotions in my life. But realistically my life as I knew it was over. I was no longer the priority in my life. It was so difficult to concentrate on my finals but some how I managed and finished up the last semester with all A’s. One week later Mr. Perfect proposed and of course I accepted. The following weekend I walked at my graduation ceremony and my new fiancé and I got to announce all the good news to my family. All of these cherished and memorable moments took place in a one month time frame while my 20 year old self spent endless hours pondering “when??” The events I had waited years for, dreamt about, all happening, unexpectedly at once, and that’s just the way life is, no matter how much planning/preparing you do, life has something else entirely in store for you. This is my life in FAST FORWARD.